To: You
From: Me
I wish you were here
To help me through
You not being here
I was there when you needed me
So where are you or did you flee
To be needed isn’t a big demand
Ask the Sun she would understand
Burning bright so she can warm this land
Why do I write down what I already know
It’s like closing my eyes when it’s dark
The damage has been done but I have to make my mark
I don’t care if it hurts I just want to have control
Quick and sharp, slow and dull
It’s not everyday that I manufacture pain
Put your finger on my pulse and feel the rhythm in my veins
Read my blood like it’s braille
And you can feel where we failed
Trace your finger down my body and be where you bailed
Where my blood turned to blue
Where you left me for someone new
Where you forgot about our plans
Where I put my head in my hands
Where I crawled inside my mind
Where you were mean and I was kind
Where you were the perpetrator
Because I
I am the narrator
I killed you off in the story
But I want to write you back in
You were just in a deep sleep
A medically induced sin
Wake up wake up
I’m the one who’s sick
Save me from myself
Are you listening to this
How much more directly can I speak to you
I’ll leave the next line empty so you can come to my rescue
Maybe if I read this again you’ll respond the next time
You’ll stop me from finishing and tell me I’m fine
I’m ok
I’m ok
I’m not ok
I’m ok with not being ok
Ok
Ok
I have to finish the story on my own
And do what I’ve always known
To let go to embrace the unknown
Because no one’s going to write these words for me
No one’s going to feel my feelings for me
Or complete me
Or defeat me
Or mistreat me
Or break me solve me and fix me
I think I addressed this wrong
This isn’t to you
It’s to me
I left me for someone else
I needed someone to need me so I can love myself
I know opposites attract
But I will always take me back
Love,
Me
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